Hey guys! recently, I'm not feeling that great
1st. Suicide call I attended during my work as a medic
2nd. I screwed up on something pretty bad.
lastly, WHY THE FUCK IS EVERYONE BREAKING UP?!

okay, touching on the suicide case first. After waking up from a 3hour sleep, I drag my insomnia affected ass to Bishan firestation. Not long after, we recieved an ambulance call, "I heard someone fell, I don't know what happen" So I thought it was just some normal "fall down" case, till we arrive..
the scene- fckin gruesome! I rushed to the scene till my driver said: aiya, slowly la die already..
first thing I saw when I reach there was the brains 6ft away from the body. The body was in some awkward yoga position..and there was mince brains everywhere in the radius. feeling disgusted..I tiptoed my way out of the shit she made out herself.
THEN MY PMT WENT TO THE DEAD BITCH'S SIDE AND WANTED TO DO ECG ON HER!
I told her it wasn't necessary as the brains are already out and it's obviously dead! (so it's lame to do an ECG just to pronounce dead)
GUESS WHAT, from the back of my head there came a voice "BEN! GO HELP SUGENE-THE PMT OUT!"
:( FUCK NO FUCK NO FUCK NO..I had no choice but to help her out. So there I was tip toeing around the mince brains and got RIGHT BESIDE THAT JUMPER..
1/4 of her face was torn out..I guess that was where the brains flew out..
so left 1 eye, and it was still open!
I couldnt tell whether it was a girl or guy because the face is so badly ripped. and her boobs looked like chest muscles to me! haha
Soon after the police put a tent on her and we handed over to them and left the scene..
I seriously don't understand why must ppl commit suicide. I believe there's always a way to solve everything as long as you're breathing..

SO PRIOR TO THAT! I HAD THIS NIGHTMARE/ROMANCE kinda dream later that night.
It's pretty draggy to say here so I'll tell you only if you ask me-lazy to type here uhh. I bet you guys lazy to read about it too uhh! haha!
BUT! there's something I wanna ask you guys.
In the dream I was holding the girls right hand-so im on the left side lah~
then she took a ring on her left hand and slot in on her right hand's ring finger..

question is..does it symbolize anything? if any of you guys know..pls let me know
call me, text me, facebook me..just let me know aites! :D

I wish to be there
To end your nightmare
You thought I didn't care
You said we weren't a pair
All I did was stare
...I know this isn't rare
I know life's unfair
If only I was there...