Constantly thinking what was the wrong move I made that resulted in this. Be it fate or karma, it's impossible to totally erase myself from the memories I've been through. I'm no prince nor knight, but didn you know I've already made you my princess? Our life was perfect, why screw it up? Out of all the girls I've met. You were the last I expected to inflict such hurt to me. That's why it hurt so bad. I'm gg crazy. I'm losing my mind. Why am I feeling like this when everything seems perfect from the outside. Some people say embrace the pain and you'll be able to move on. Sadly, it's too much to embrace. Nor even think about it. No one understands. I can't tell anyone. I have no one to talk to. Those counsellors, they're one dimensional and worth nothing. Maybe it's time I find a new solution. Maybe a new world where I can breathe and be myself. A part of me is dying everyday.
So afraid of loving you any deeper
So afraid of losing you
So afraid of leaving you
So afraid of keeping you
So afraid of getting tired of you
So afraid of you getting tired of me
So afraid what might we become without each other
So afraid what might become if we keep each other
So afraid of making choices
So afraid of letting nature take it's course
So afraid afraid you're not the one
So afraid you're the one
Truth is I haven really gotten over the pain. I really want to kill him.I wish karma would work a lil faster on him. The thing I fear the most to happen to you, actually happened. Have I given you too much freedom? Have I not made you happy? When you finally read this. Be strong cuz all my prayers..still goes out to you.
Although I really hate you, I part of me still wish you were here.
It's 5:05am, works in 2hours.better stop thinking rubbish.goodnights
