I really wish I can get sick and tired of all your nonsense real soon. I know I have a good determination. But, this isn't good for me! Oh well, happy new year, you put club infront of everything first. Fuck off 2011..you've been a really bad year...

But no I won't play your sick twisted game. I'll juz stop being sad, and be awesome instead.

-cuz I know I can

What am I to you? Definitely not your toy. I hate you for disregarding my feelings. Yeah~ I'm a man, I can't have such whiney attitude. Have I treat you too nice for too long that you forgot how not to take things for granted?

Love.fuck this shit.
For love I choose to keep a girl who doesn't want to look pretty for me because I don't mind her bed-look.
For love I chose to let u get all over my head.
For love I chose not to be selfish. And let u be selfish.
For love, I have to avoid the places u go to have fun, because you feel that I'll ruin it.
Yeah, love..fuck u in your face

I'm clueless to what I want, but definitely not this

Was I planning for you to come back to me. Or was I planning to have a beautiful break up with you? Idk, whatever the case is, no one is allowed to control my emotions anymore! No one!

Yeah~ I'll start saving myself..I'll start fighting for my happiness. I'll fight for my freedom. I'll fight for my own life. It was your shoes I was trying to fit in. It was like a drug took for too long. Withdrawal symptoms? I'm sure I'll be able to handle that. Because you've shown me that you're not worth fighting for.....anymore~

I've already done my best to give u a reason to quit your alcoholic-like lifestyle. And I'm really tired of always fitting into those small holes of your life juz so you have no room to think about alcohol. Your whole circle is full of people that drinks and drink only. It's hard to fight this battle...alone..I can't stop you...neither would u want me to join you... You tell me....how can I not feel lonely.
(You mentioned before "maybe leaving me would be best for me in the long run~) only because you can't quit drinking..well, fuck it. If you give 2/10 effort..I won't be your perfect 10..