I know I've swore not to post emo stuffs here anymore. But today isn't really the best day of my life.

Lately, I find myself not wanting to say much anymore. Why? Because there's no version of this argument which I see my emerging the victor. Here are the possible outcomes.

1. I express my feelings and tell you exactly how I feel.
Result: you start defending yourself as if I'm firing away at you. Saying I don't understand, I'm selfish, I'm unfair. ( I get fucked)
Thoughts: if you think all I want is just to criticize you. I would have use a harsher approach instead of using the "no offense intended"

2. I keep it to myself.
Results: You tell me that I am being boring, hiding things from you. And said "why did I even find a bf like this, got things dw say" (I get fucked)
Thoughts: the only reason why I keep it to myself is because you won't accept method #1. And risk having to clean up a bigger mess u have made out of this.

3. I throw my temper at you, I snap, I yell at you.
Results: you go with "you dare to yell at me" and start putting on ur shittiest face and start biting, hitting, scratching like a convulsing dog.
Thoughts: this is what you do after you "checkmate" me with your well played strategy. And pushed me to the fucking wall.

I'm here typing, to tell you how much I'm fucking SICK of all this nonsense.

I do love you. But you've made me learn nv to believe anyone's promises, always having things go your way, right or wrong, and be forever demanding.I've been trying my best to offer you all I have.

And if you happen to chance upon this. You'll prolly be furious.proclaiming how much you hate me. And how much u wanna revenge. But by the tome u see this, it'll long be none of my problems anymore. So goodbye Jasmine zhao, you'll never get the best of me ever again.